An Accuser’s voice,
"How
do you respond to all these charges of impropriety?"
A Lover’s
response,
“Have you
ever met genius and art that so fascinated you that you could think of little
else? Do you know what it is to be attracted by some glimmer of light and
brilliance and then, as you draw closer, a loveliness unfolds that surprises
and delights you? Your smile grows larger and the contemplation that inspires
only grows fonder with the passage of time. It is like coming across value and
wisdom that, at the time, you are not able to apprehend. It escapes your
conscious notice but something on the order of pheromones never-the-less draws
you and moves you inexplicably. It is the mystery of all the choices we make
before our conscious awareness even notices what is going on. It is as though
we are drawn on by unseen forces - God if you will. The triggers of sight and
the visceral response of smell captures your attention and somehow you are
awakened to loveliness.
“I know
this great joy and I have struggled all my life to respond to it in a way that
feels like fulfillment, like naturalness, like unmitigated joy. I do not regret
the courage of my responses that have been this way. There are too many
examples and anecdotes I can give of fear, of the opinions of others, the
pressures of family and followers and that of leaders that have diverted me
from the quantum pull of my own heart. Where I have turned aside to see a burning
bush but I did not stay long enough to listen. The clamour and clutter of the
agenda of others clouded my perception and the clear experience of my own soul.
“The forces
of history and the contextual pull of the present are propelling me into the consummation
of the future. It is the inexorable flow of destiny. When I have yielded to
this flow of destiny and courageously initiated movement toward this natural
visceral response I have traveled decades and miles in moments. I found myself
in heaven, in a place where I wanted to live forever. I saw things that made me
weep. I heard things that melted my heart. Something in the aether moved
through me and I could see/hear the end of time. I saw and heard humility and
power. I watched as human artifice and pride crumbled and melted into the soft
simple care of a child who listened and learned. The smoke of Babylon rose up
and those who were moved by this something in the aether were unmoved by the
great pull of power, wealth, and pride.
“When I
looked into her eyes they ravished me with embrace. I saw my own worth. I
became better than I was. I became more whole and a more true expression of
myself. I am glad I cast off restraint. I am happy to have followed my heart. I
have tasted heaven and I am so rich and my eyes have seen beyond the pale of
this unfulfilled and longing world.
“What do I
say to accusations and to the shame inferred by this word impropriety? I say I
am happy, I am free, I am full of love, and I would do it again a thousand
times over!”
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